One of the many things that is quite impossible to do, is to do any sort of “double-blind” analysis of the decisions one makes in life. We are mostly left with sorting out, and reacting to, or recovering from the “results” of our decisions.
Because of these decisions we get to be both “saints” and “sinners” over the course of our lives. With good information we can sometimes make what turns out to be better choices than some other choices we might have made. Regardless, 
we will still have to deal with unexpected input from all manner of forces outside of ourselves–or at least seemingly outside of ourselves. These little “detours” take us down unexpected roads that could not have been foreseen and for which we have no maps–even outdated maps.
What is important in our lives is that we make decisions.
We must toss fate to wind and make decisions based on what could be argued is incomplete information, inaccurate information–even disinformation. After all–all information is incomplete. If nothing could be added or taken away–it could not exist.
Who was it that started the preposterous myth that there is something more than the “journey” anyway?
While we can play mind games with all sorts of “theories”–even those that say those “outside forces” actually are “us,” are likely correct in the sense that we are all part of a “bigger picture.” This information, these distractions, only helps us move through to places more palatable to us–hopefully.
For example, we can embrace the fact that some urban terrorist breaks into our car and steals our laptop. We can rationalize that somehow we are connected to this whacko, or that on some cosmic level we “set-up” or “lived” the events of our lives in a particular way that brought us to the loss of the laptop. Even if we subscribe to the hair-brained notion that we are not stolen from, unless we are on some level thieves ourselves (duh), none of these ideas gets us past the point that we now must re-group and make the money to buy another laptop–or come to grips with the idea that we don’t really need one, or we needed a new one anyway.
It is not always “comfortable” to use the world as our mirror–to allow ourselves to see ourselves reflected back by everything around us–to recognize ourselves in everything we see. This is no different than being in denial about what we see in a real mirror–must be the bad lighting. Why don’t I see the person I see in my head–when I look in the mirror? Even denial can be motivational–if it allows us to do all the things that those around us tell us we are too old to do anymore, and allows the memory of our first girlfriend (or boyfriend depending on the reader) to look exactly the same as they did way back when.
At any rate, if we pay close attention, we can get glimpses, every now and then, of our real selves out of the corner of our eye.
Blink, and we disappear–leaving us to start paying attention all over again.
This is the way it is supposed to be.
By Charles Buell, Real Estate Inspections in Seattle
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